I am 72 hours smoke free.
I didn't intend to do it this fast, but I got the gum, I was almost out of cigarettes and said...why not NOW! So 11:15 on 1/8/09 was my very last cigarette of my life! It was...it was...it was.
I've cut myself some slack and have put the sugar back in my coffee.
I am exercising though, so that should counter this some.
It's not easy...it's actually quite hard, but I'm proud of myself and I AIM to keep it up!
Sunday, January 11, 2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
First Night
This is for my own gratification and satisfaction that I will have the date when he asks me this very important question in the future ... "Mama, when did I sleep through the night in my very own bed." Then I can tell him...but I may have to check here first! Ha ha ha!
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Reinventions - Not Resolutions
I have never really liked the word resolution - sounds so negative to me. I mean, think about it, when it is used in this tense..."Romeo, I resolve myself to drink this poison and live with you for all eternity." Okay, well, that's kind of dramatic, but you get the picture. I'm not resolving myself to do anything this year - I am a chameleon, I am adapting and changing with my environment, I am an elephant, I have a long memory and I am a phoenix, I am recreating myself from the ashes....wow, okay, just as dramatic!
In my world, January 5th is the day I chose for all of this to begin - the kids went back to school and we all started on a clean slate that day, rather than foggy and tired on January 1st.
Here goes, in list form, as a little nod to Blue House Mom who always loves a good list!
1. Monday - 1/5/09 - No sugar in my coffee, I really miss my sugar! Yup, I'm going healthy again! As much as I love all the yummy, fattening, sweet, white gooey stuff that's been around for over a month - my body doesn't love it back! I've been tired, crabby and literally dragging my butt! Goodbye sweet nothings.
2. Yoga - first class, ever - 9:30 a.m. Some spiritual and physical exercise! The ying.
3. Karate - back to it - Tuesdays and Thursdays! I ALWAYS feel better and do better when I have a physical release - I just gotta work through the pain ...the yang.
3. Study - If I haven't toldja already, I've registered to take the Teaching ASSISTANT ** Certification Exam - 2/21/09. Brushing up on that math, oh man!!! Already sent the resume in to the school district and researching colleges to start classes, hopefully, by summer to get the rest of the credits I need to eventually get my teaching certificate ...yea, I know, whoa, nothing like doing something outta left field. Hit the brakes, turn around, it's do over time. **Whoops** Missed that word first go round on this post - wish I could go right for the Teacher Cert. Baby steps, baby steps!
4. Doctors Appointments - I'm wayyyy behind. Just routine stuff and taking care of business! First one is this Thursday already!!! Nothing like the universe not letting me procrastinate any longer.
5. Leaving my comfort zone. That's a big one for me. Started already. Did the yoga thing, went to a New Year's Eve Party, sent my resume out on Christmas Eve, helped a woman out by driving her to the hospital yesterday and getting her settled - long story. These aren't things that are completely alien to me, helping people, doing things on my own, new experiences, but I've been in this cloistering myself away from the outside world mode for way too long - it became very cozy inside ... but if I have to be honest, its kinda lonely in here. It's time to welcome the world back into my life - and I never do things half way - so look out - here I come.
6. Stop Smoking Part Deux - I gave it a huge, and I mean huge COLD TURKEY effort over the summer and failed miserably. I don't mean just couldn't do it, I basically did it, then fell apart. I mean sobbing in a fetal position type of failure. But failure means nothing unless you learn from your mistakes! I cannot do this alone! I'm going to try the gum this time - I've even got a coupon! Hey, so what if I get addicted to the gum, at least the blasted smoke won't be inside my body any longer!
7. Structure. I always thought it was the kids who were the ones who thrived on structure...but, it's become increasingly evident in my day to day life that I also thrive on structure. I guess the old adage is true - a happy mother makes a happy home!
8. Self-talk - only positive - only positive - only positive - only positive - only positive, shall I go on? Self talk = the constant dialogue in my head.
9. ME! ME! ME! I don't think of myself often, I mean, of course we all do, but not when it comes to my needs...and I don't mean material things, I mean emotionally, spiritually, mentally - I've hit my go to hell years early ladies - what can I tell ya? I've had some amazing women paving the way for me! It's all your fault!!!! I hope ya still love me when I catch up to ya!
10. Creativity - I will not be trading in my creative side for any of the things mentioned above - it's part of who I am and an intregal puzzle piece to my happiness. I will still write, sew, cook, bake and make some beautiful jewelry too!
11. Being a better mother, wife, daughter, friend. This should actually be number one on the list, but all the things that I typed up before this will help me to become a better person in general. So, it is last, but it is most important, especially the mother part.
In my world, January 5th is the day I chose for all of this to begin - the kids went back to school and we all started on a clean slate that day, rather than foggy and tired on January 1st.
Here goes, in list form, as a little nod to Blue House Mom who always loves a good list!
1. Monday - 1/5/09 - No sugar in my coffee, I really miss my sugar! Yup, I'm going healthy again! As much as I love all the yummy, fattening, sweet, white gooey stuff that's been around for over a month - my body doesn't love it back! I've been tired, crabby and literally dragging my butt! Goodbye sweet nothings.
2. Yoga - first class, ever - 9:30 a.m. Some spiritual and physical exercise! The ying.
3. Karate - back to it - Tuesdays and Thursdays! I ALWAYS feel better and do better when I have a physical release - I just gotta work through the pain ...the yang.
3. Study - If I haven't toldja already, I've registered to take the Teaching ASSISTANT ** Certification Exam - 2/21/09. Brushing up on that math, oh man!!! Already sent the resume in to the school district and researching colleges to start classes, hopefully, by summer to get the rest of the credits I need to eventually get my teaching certificate ...yea, I know, whoa, nothing like doing something outta left field. Hit the brakes, turn around, it's do over time. **Whoops** Missed that word first go round on this post - wish I could go right for the Teacher Cert. Baby steps, baby steps!
4. Doctors Appointments - I'm wayyyy behind. Just routine stuff and taking care of business! First one is this Thursday already!!! Nothing like the universe not letting me procrastinate any longer.
5. Leaving my comfort zone. That's a big one for me. Started already. Did the yoga thing, went to a New Year's Eve Party, sent my resume out on Christmas Eve, helped a woman out by driving her to the hospital yesterday and getting her settled - long story. These aren't things that are completely alien to me, helping people, doing things on my own, new experiences, but I've been in this cloistering myself away from the outside world mode for way too long - it became very cozy inside ... but if I have to be honest, its kinda lonely in here. It's time to welcome the world back into my life - and I never do things half way - so look out - here I come.
6. Stop Smoking Part Deux - I gave it a huge, and I mean huge COLD TURKEY effort over the summer and failed miserably. I don't mean just couldn't do it, I basically did it, then fell apart. I mean sobbing in a fetal position type of failure. But failure means nothing unless you learn from your mistakes! I cannot do this alone! I'm going to try the gum this time - I've even got a coupon! Hey, so what if I get addicted to the gum, at least the blasted smoke won't be inside my body any longer!
7. Structure. I always thought it was the kids who were the ones who thrived on structure...but, it's become increasingly evident in my day to day life that I also thrive on structure. I guess the old adage is true - a happy mother makes a happy home!
8. Self-talk - only positive - only positive - only positive - only positive - only positive, shall I go on? Self talk = the constant dialogue in my head.
9. ME! ME! ME! I don't think of myself often, I mean, of course we all do, but not when it comes to my needs...and I don't mean material things, I mean emotionally, spiritually, mentally - I've hit my go to hell years early ladies - what can I tell ya? I've had some amazing women paving the way for me! It's all your fault!!!! I hope ya still love me when I catch up to ya!
10. Creativity - I will not be trading in my creative side for any of the things mentioned above - it's part of who I am and an intregal puzzle piece to my happiness. I will still write, sew, cook, bake and make some beautiful jewelry too!
11. Being a better mother, wife, daughter, friend. This should actually be number one on the list, but all the things that I typed up before this will help me to become a better person in general. So, it is last, but it is most important, especially the mother part.
Just in case I hadn't noticed, ha, how much and how fast he is growing, on January 1, 2009, I found his first loose tooth!
No, not the one that's sticking up funny, but the one right next to it - the funny one is what made me notice. Looking at his teeth, the left front center one has got only a few days left. But, don't worry, the big guys have already warned him about letting Pau Pau touch it!
No, not the one that's sticking up funny, but the one right next to it - the funny one is what made me notice. Looking at his teeth, the left front center one has got only a few days left. But, don't worry, the big guys have already warned him about letting Pau Pau touch it!
My Little Guy's Life
I feel I don't often write enough about my little guy, and, quite frankly, I could write an entire book solely based on how he melts my heart each and every time he looks at me and says "I love you" for no apparent reason other than that is how he's feeling at the moment. Aside from his charm, he is quite the character.
On December 30, 2008 he asked me for "one of those things that wakes you up." "An alarm clock?" I ask. "Yes, Mama (that's what he's suddenly calling me nowadays, ) so I can wake up in the morning." "Sure, honey." I reply. "I have one for you." "Okay, because my body and my mind have been having a battle and my body won. I want to sleep in my own room tonight."
We never pushed him, never even asked him if he wanted to...his body and mind decided for him.
That first night, we couldn't believe it. He crashed right away, only to wake up at 4:00 a.m., then 4:30 a.m. and so on. In our bed, out of our bed...and finally, back in ours. Other than being tired, it was all good for us. We assumed he'd be back rotating between his big sister and brother's beds again. And he did, for one night more...but for the past two
he's been snuggled up with Carey (his Care Bear) and his puppy. Nodding off in the blink of an eye to wander around his very own Neverland.
It's wonderful and bittersweet all at once. He's such an independent little guy and I suppose, intuitively, he knows I'm a little sad about him growing up. Believe it or not, it may just be the reason he's started calling me Mama lately. It's just the way he is.
On December 30, 2008 he asked me for "one of those things that wakes you up." "An alarm clock?" I ask. "Yes, Mama (that's what he's suddenly calling me nowadays, ) so I can wake up in the morning." "Sure, honey." I reply. "I have one for you." "Okay, because my body and my mind have been having a battle and my body won. I want to sleep in my own room tonight."
We never pushed him, never even asked him if he wanted to...his body and mind decided for him.That first night, we couldn't believe it. He crashed right away, only to wake up at 4:00 a.m., then 4:30 a.m. and so on. In our bed, out of our bed...and finally, back in ours. Other than being tired, it was all good for us. We assumed he'd be back rotating between his big sister and brother's beds again. And he did, for one night more...but for the past two
he's been snuggled up with Carey (his Care Bear) and his puppy. Nodding off in the blink of an eye to wander around his very own Neverland.It's wonderful and bittersweet all at once. He's such an independent little guy and I suppose, intuitively, he knows I'm a little sad about him growing up. Believe it or not, it may just be the reason he's started calling me Mama lately. It's just the way he is.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Christmas Follies 2008
A visit with the Mr. and Mrs.
A shy shepherd herding the flock
An angel in the wings, a composed narrator and a floating friend
Radiant angel
The ultimate Gingerbread House - A Family Tradition2008 Review Continued
Growth
Fun
Old Friends
Family
New Adventures Inspired by Old Loves
Swim Teams
New Places
Giggles and Laughter
Drums and Dancing
and... Mosquito BitesWe will not miss you 2008. We shall look back fondly on all the opportunities we seized, the adventures we went on and the growth we accomplished! We embrace 2009...who knows what it will bring!
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